If I don't

Every job I done had

I felt i was cursed with

They be snatching my soul

I need reimbursment

Gotta use that for my purpose

I feel like i did it on purpose

Slacked off on my dreams

So it could potentially hurt me

Sometimes I feel

Like im really unworthy

Tried everything in my power

Nothing seems to be working

I'm hurting

I did it to myself though

Lost all of my patience

Cause when i tried it all came slow

And I heard it usually does

To those of us who try to stay true

Its hard to work this job

And still try to subdue

All my demons and insecurities

That constantly try to attack me

Got everything I could ask for

But still something is lacking

The money is good

In my love life im happy

being true to myself

Even keep my hair a lil nappy

But deep down in my heart

Seeping into my soul

There's a part of me

That I still got on doze

Im froze in time

Waiting on myself to make it happen

Put in my two weeks notice

Gather my things and get to packing

I'm lacking the fire

To start my next project

I don't know what to do now

What steps do I take next ?

I just need to do it

Whatever this thing is

Trying to be an inspiration

And look out for the kids

Cause I don't see too many

And for that I'm starting to frown

I don't have more time to waste

I guess I'll start this thing now

Cause if I don't

It'll be another soul wasted

That didn't step up to the plate

And the look out for the babies